A colleague of mine, Rabbi Paul Arberman, recently shared a sentence he heard from his mother: “A ship in harbor,” said Mrs Arberman, “is safe, but that’s not what ships are built for”.
I’ve been thinking about the phrase – originally attributed to
John A. Shedd – in the context of these bruising times and in the context of
this day of retreat, this time of Neilah. We’ve been in harbour. It’s time to set sail again soon.
It’s stormy outside.
Here, I think, is the goal
– the very thing I would want out there on the seas. It’s based on a Mishnah and
a teaching of Rabbi Sharon Brous from her book, The Amen Effect.
Mishnah Middot describes,
largely, the size of the Temple. And having set out quite how large this
building was, it says this.
כָּל
הַנִּכְנָסִין לְהַר הַבַּיִת נִכְנָסִין דֶּרֶךְ יָמִין וּמַקִּיפִין וְיוֹצְאִין
דֶּרֶךְ שְׂמֹאל,[1]
Everyone coming into the
Temple area would come in and turn to the right, and walk around until they exited
on the left.
חוּץ מִמִּי
שֶׁאֵרְעוֹ דָבָר, שֶׁהוּא מַקִּיף לִשְׂמֹאל.
Apart from those to whom
something awful had happened. They would walk around to the left, and the
people who would pass these people going around to the left would say,
מַה לְּךָ מַקִּיף לִשְׂמֹאל,
What has happened that you
are going round to the left.
And the person going round
to the left would respond, I’m in mourning.
And the person going round
to the right would respond, May the One who dwells in this house comfort you.
הַשּׁוֹכֵן
בַּבַּיִת הַזֶּה יְנַחֲמֶךָּ.
It’s an incredible idea,
of an entire society that understands some people just can’t go
around the same way as everyone else, of an entire society that is alert and
asks - מַה לְּךָ
מַקִּיף לִשְׂמֹאל, - what has happened that you are going round
to the left?
What an incredible society
it would be, if you were to share the thing that causes pain with another
human being, there would come a response that is compassionate, allows the
pain, and just seeks to draw out some of the sting.
I know, I know, it feels a
long, long way away.
I know, I know, it feels more often that no one is interested in our pain and that if we were ever to
expose just a piece of our vulnerability, we would meet either incomprehension, or
dumb silence, or worse, that awful ‘whataboutery’ or even cruelty.
Who among us is brave
enough, when faced with the option to go round in the same direction as
everyone else, to choose to go round in the opposite direction, along with all
of those שֶׁאֵרְעוֹ דָבָר to whom something awful happened?
I’m not often that brave.
And who among us, even if we saw someone coming towards us, in
the opposite direction, maybe even bearing a Kriah – a torn garment, or another
mark of a torn soul – would trust ourselves to say the right thing, would feel
confident saying anything?
I’m rarely that brave and, quite literally, this is my job.
I, like so many of us, fight against this urge to lurk in the habour
where it is safe. But, as Mrs Arberman reminded her son, “that’s not what ships
are built for”.
I want, as the Gates are closing, to give us a bit more
confidence, a bit more hope, a bit more faith in being a ship on the open sea,
in being a human who is prepared to encounter another human with compassion.
Because I think this is what we are built for – meeting, encountering, sharing,
caring.
My oboe-playing daughter was at a week-long music camp over
the summer, and I traipsed off to Kent to watch the performance and pick her up
at the end of the week. As we were leaving, my daughter, her oboe and I,
kippah-on, one of the other parents came up to me, took my hand, looked me in
the eyes and said, “Awful, I know, awful these things. I just wanted to say,
I’m with you.” And then he slipped away to re-find his woodwind-playing child.
These things happen a lot.
I was touched by something written by Sarah Tuttle-Singer, a
Jerusalem-based writer. She wrote of a bunch of things she doesn’t trust – it’s
not so easy to trust in what she calls a “post-truth, apocalyptic swirl of fake
news, AI manipulations and narrishkeit” But there are, nonetheless, many things in which she does trust;
I trust [she wrote] the bus
driver who slammed on the brakes and opened the doors when he saw me sprinting
down the street.
I trust the greengrocer who
explains why the mangoes are perfect this summer, and why the avocados are
disappointing.
I trust the Old City merchant who
told me not to buy floaty dresses from his stall, but to go instead to the
wholesaler he uses, where they cost a third of the price. [I presume that’s an
Arab old city merchant, she’s written plenty about meetings with Arabs in
Jerusalem].
Trust is a spiritual practice, it takes … practice.
And Tuttle-Singer also wrote this
And I trust my children. Not
because they are perfect, but because they are growing. Because they are
learning to choose kindness, to discern, to stumble and get up again. Because
they carry tomorrow inside them - and they’re stubbornly refusing to let go of
the hope that can come with it.
I trust my own children.
Actually, I know a bunch of your children, the children of New
London Synagogue. I trust them too. And not just our own children, there’s an
entire generation out there worth trusting, because despite the Covid thing and
the AI thing and everything else, they are growing, learning to choose kindness
and stubbornly refusing to let go of hope. Our children are remarkable.
And I think it’s up to the rest of us, the supposed grown-ups,
to more stubbornly refuse to let go of hope.
I think it’s up to the rest of us to try and be bolder on the
stormy seas.
The story is told of the four Jews, of a certain age, who
would meet every Thursday for a cup of late-morning coffee.
Oy, said the first
Oy vey, said the second
Oy veyz mir, said the third.
Listen, said the fourth, I thought we agreed not to talk about
politics.
That’s not going to be good enough. That’s not what we are
built for.
The story should be told about four Jews of a certain age who
gathered for a late-morning coffee.
“Wow,” said the first, “did you see the way the autumnal sun
glints through the yellowing leaves?”
“Just yesterday,” said the second, “I excused myself for accidentally bumping into a stranger and they responded, perfectly civilly. We
had a momentary meeting of hearts over the contents of our shopping bags.”
“Actually, I’m not
doing so well,” shared the third. “I need to ask for your help,” and the
conversation soared and the world, just a little piece of it, was mended.
On the occasions in my life when I have, in the language of
the Mishnah from Middot, indeed turned to the left – allowed myself to be seen in
need of care, I’ve always been surprised by the warmth that has greeted me. At
the very least, turning left has always clarified for me who I should seek out
as friends. And there are many, many I should be seeking out as friends.
The turning to the left, the admittance that I’m stumbling,
the abstaining from grunting, ‘yeah fine’ when asked how I’m doing, has served
less, in my life, to mark me out as someone to be avoided, and more, in my
experience, as someone others have wished to know better.
My experience of fighting back the desire to remain in harbour
and instead make myself available to meet strangers and strangeness and
otherness and pain has not brought me to a place of depression or anxiety but
rather given me a sense of the beauty that exists in humanity; a beauty that is
available to us all – if we set sail from our harbour.
I know. Other experiences differ. I’m not recommending we
present every stranger we pass with the fullest list of every ailment and woe
we’ve experienced since childhood, on first meeting. But can we tweak the way
go around in this world? Can we look out for the other brave ships with whom we
share this sea, all of whom are all built for this purpose of seeking
companionship, sharing kindness and building a world of decency? What a world
we might build.
My mind goes to that
extraordinary idea in Talmud Kiddushin (40b), and Rambam’s Hilchot Teshuvah
(3:4), that the world, and all the people in it are like a set of weighing
scales precariously balanced in equilibrium. And one act, one single gesture
towards the direction in which we wish the world to follow, will tip not only
our own self, but Col HaOlam Kulo – the whole wide world – towards the scale of
merit, towards the scale of compassion, towards the scale of a better world for
us all.
In a world so febrile and seeming to be so hostile, setting
sail, being willing to bare weaknesses, to encounter – with compassion – the
weaknesses of another is, surely, the greatest act of spiritual resistance.
There is a world out there, beyond this day of harbouring, in
which the forces that do not make our world a better place, rely on our spiritual nervousness
to argue there is nothing in this world stronger than hatred, or at the very
least, as if we are all playing a zero-sum game where your benefit must mean my
loss.
But the truth is, there is love in this world. There is that
which we can trust and there is a whole that is greater than the sum of its
parts, and if we were only able to build this world together, what a wonderful
world it would be.
May we sail well. May we love well. May we be bold and brave
and compassionate and kind. And in doing so, may we build and bring just a
little bit closer, the world in which we would all wish to live.
May it come to us all.
Chatimah Tovah
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